Author Archive: alorabora

Hellooo. It’s me….

Brittan, Emma and I cuddling

Me, Emma, and Brittan cuddling on the air mattress while we were all at Christmas in Nashville. (Pic courtesy of Brittan.)

Hello and welcome to the return of Alora’s blogging.

It’s only been two months since I posted. Although, a lot has happened in the world that you probably already know about and if you don’t this blog isn’t for news anyway. Well, sometimes I share important news-related things, but this is not one of those times. This blog is going to be a what’s on my mind / how I’ve been doing blog through and through.

First up, happy holidays. I had a wonderful family Christmas will the nuclear fam and the gf. It is the first Christmas I’ve ever had with pretty much all my favorite people in one place. (Not including my extended family. I love you all too.) It was a small Christmas, but I really enjoyed it. It was really wonderful to be able to interact with my parents and siblings and also Emma (the gf). The fam has only had a little bit of time to get to know Emma in the past, so I think this weekend was good for all of them even if it was more than a little stressful at times.

Brittan, Emma, and I drove up to Nashville on Thursday and then back again on Monday, so it was four and a half days of seven people in a two bedroom apartment. The spirit of Christmas kept things fun though. I had fun anyway. I got to cuddle all my peoples and we hung out and watched some movies and played some games. I cuddled my puppy. It was a solid weekend of family fun and insanity.

This week is a three day work week because we had Monday off and also Friday off, for New Year’s Eve. Most of the office is out on PTO, so it is just a handful of us in this week and the work itself has been quite slow. You’d think there would be less distractions with fewer people, but actually it just means the people here have less reason to be quiet. It’s been kinda great though. I really do love all the people in my office and working with them is just a blast.

On a grander scale of things, since my last blog, I have attempted NaNoWriMo, gotten a car, spent Thanksgiving in Virginia Beach with Emma’s family, and seriously, seriously considered getting a dog. I’ve also missed writing these blogs and just itching to put more words out to the internet. I think I’m going to spend some time this week to put together a set of actionable New Year’s resolutions that I can potentionally succeed at relatively easily. You can bet that one of them will be to blog more. (I also want to make this blog better on the backend, but we’ll see if that happens.)

In actual news, Carrie Fisher died yesterday and I am quiet sad about it. I wasn’t going to mention it because it’s not actually a part of my life, but I want this blog to be more useful to future me, when looking back at who I was at the tail end of 2016. So this is me, sad about celebrity death for a woman I never will meet, but who positively affected my life in many ways. She definitely will continue to affect my life, especially after I get around to purchasing and reading her book. That’s another thing I want to do in 2016: read more books.

Final tidbit I shall leave you with is that I have been listening to John and Hank Green’s podcast, Dear Hank and John, recently and I quite enjoy it. I seriously recommend you check it out. I also watched a wonderful video by Rowan Ellis earlier today about ethical consumerism and how to continue the push for that when it comes to human slavery as well as animal testing. It’s only ten minutes long, and you should really take the time to watch it. She put together a wonderfully compelling and informative video. I just found her channel today and I’m very excited to check out what else she has and will post.

Alright, I will stop rambling for now. Thank you for reading, share this around if you want and please comment below with your favorite christmas gift from this year!

Till next week,

-Alora

19 Things in 19 Years

My friends and I at me and Brittan's 5th birthday party.

Hello friends,

Today is my birthday! Many years ago I had a birthday party with cupcakes, specifically baked for smooshing into my friends faces. That’s what happened in the picture. It was definitely, the best birthday party, I’ve ever had.

I, along with my twin sister Brittan, turned 19 today. I thought it would be fun to follow the trend and make a list article of nineteen things I’ve learned in the years leading up to this moment.

  1. It’s okay to not be friends with people that are making you unhappy or you don’t like hanging out with. You are not required to be friends with everyone.
  2. Never get your hair thinned. It only makes the frizzing worse.
  3. It’s okay to change your mind about something even if you were very adamant about your original opinion.
  4. Reading a book will make you feel better.
  5. There is actually a way to clip your toenails without giving yourself ingrown nails.
  6. I am not good at cleaning up after myself.
  7. High heels are amazing.
  8. Apparently, my boobs are not done growing yet.
  9. There is no reason not to take a risk when it comes to hairstyles because it always grows back.
  10. Everyone around including your siblings, parents, friends and extended family are all their own person living their own life that is just as complex and important as yours.
  11. Wolves are some of the coolest animals in the world.
  12. All of your opinions are colored by you privileges and experiences.
  13. Living alone is difficult, but doable. So long as you go outside almost every day.
  14. Onsies never go out of style.
  15. You don’t really need that random trinket from when you were seven that has little to no significance.
  16. You can write fifty thousand words in a month while working full time (Still not sure how I managed this for Camp NaNoWriMo 2013).
  17. Good content should be determined by how proud you are of it, not how many clicks it gets.
  18. The newest Vlogbrothers video may be long or heavy, but it’s still worth a watch.
  19. Journaling usually makes you feel better, especially if you can keep up with it for an extended period of time.

Some important life lessons. Some silly facts about me. All of it adds up to me: a person who is has now been on this world for 19 years. How wild is that?

Until next time,

– Alora

Learning How to Juggle Life

Hey guys,

If you did not know season one of Supergirl was recently added on Netflix. I’ve watched a couple episodes of it so far. I’m currently on episode seven which means I recently watched the one where Kara watches Cat Grant’s son: “How Does She Do It?” (episode 5). All of them are amazing, but this one in particular has a theme that really stuck with me. At the end of the episode, Kara asks Cat Grant, her wonderful #GirlBoss who has it all, how she does it, how she maintains her life. To which she responds “How do you juggle it all? You learn. That’s how.”

Since hearing that, that idea has been rolling around my head, pounding on my skull and all around clambering for me to think about it. Learning how to juggle it all: the career I want to have, the family I’d like to have eventually, posting here, posting on my YouTube channel, maintaining a social life, devoting plenty of time to my girlfriend. I have been in Atlanta for nearly three months now and if there is one thing I’ve learned it’s how to live here. I’m figuring out how to juggle this ball. I’ve got a schedule worked out. I pay my bills and rent on time every month. I keep my fridge stocked well enough that I don’t starve. I’m writing, reading, posting videos, and blogs. All while still working from 8:30 to 5:30 everyday.

Up until quite recently I was very sad because I felt like I couldn’t lead the life I wanted to lead. I even wrote a blog post detailing the kind of schedule I would like to have and now I have that schedule. I’m learning how to juggle my life. I’ve got work handled. Now I’m adding back in writing after not regularly writing for three weeks. I’m handling my YouTube videos and I still make time to call my family.

It’s okay if I drop the ball every now and then on one of these things because I’m still learning how to juggle them all. That’s what Cat Grant has taught me. Well with those words anyways. I’m kind of in love with her. She’s a boss.

This realization may seem small, but it’s more than a little life changing for me. It lets off the pressure. I don’t have to be perfect all the time in what I’m trying to do because I’m still learning how to do it. TV, guys, it has a huge impact.

In related news, Supergirl is amazing and you should go watch it.

That’s all from me this week. 😀

Lots of love,

– Alora

Top 4 Book Series About Dragons

Hello everyone

Today I am sharing my top four series with dragons in them. There is always a different way to imagine dragons and write about them and these books all do it quite differently and I love all of them

1. The Last Dragon Chronicles

all seven book covers from http://zookiesnotepad.blogspot.com/

The Last Dragon Chronicles is a seven book series of middle grade books by Chris D’Lacey. I was given the first two by my aunt when I was in second grade and the last one came out when I was in 8th grade so I pretty much grew up on these and I love them to death. The first book is title The Fire Within and it sets up what becomes one of the most elaborate and intricate worlds I have ever experienced. These books are set in contemporary New England, but there is a twist. The main character, David, rents a room from a woman named Liz who sells clay dragons, some of these dragons also come alive. The whole series is fantastic and exciting. It explores new types of dragonlore and creates an entirely new rich universe. Also, in book two, polar bears become a big part of the story and the series starts to address climate change. The first few books are definitely middle grade, but the series’ complexity increases with each book, culminating in the immensely complex finale.

2. The Inheritance Cycle

The Inheritance Cycle Covers from https://brownbooks.org/2012/09/09/the-inheritance-cycle/

A very good argument could be made for The Inheritance Cycle to be number one instead of number two and to that I say, please ignore my numbering system because all of these books are ranked the same in my heart. The Inheritance Cycle by Christoper Paoloni is another series I grew up on. These books are definitely at least YA, bordering on adult fantasy. They are written in a very high register and resemble Lord of the Rings in their epic quality. The first book, Eragon, begins the story of my favorite farm boy and the unimaginable heights he will reach. I don’t want to say too much and spoil anything for those of you that haven’t read it, but if you haven’t please go read it now. The books are thick, but totally worth it. As it true of all the books/series on this list, the dragons in this universe are wildly different from anything else I’ve read. They have an intricacy that is portrayed so well and so elegantly. Please read these books and then come back and we can talk about them in the comments because they are amazing.

3. Seraphina & Shadow Scale

Seraphina and Shadow scale covers from https://splteenmachine.com/2015/10/16/seraphina-and-shadow-scale-by-rachel-hartman/

Seraphina and Shadow Scale by Rachel Hartman make up the most refreshing fantasy couplet I’ve ever seen. Her imagining of dragons is yet again completely unique and much more science fiction than the first book would lead you to believe. These two books blend fantasy, a contemporary style and science fiction seamlessly. Not to mention that Rachel Hartman’s writing style is one of my all time favorite. She is amazing. These two books came out over the last five years. I’ve reviewed both of them more in depth previously on this blog: Shadow Scale review, Seraphina review. They are great. Please go read them.

4. The Rain Wilds Chronicles

Rain wilds Chronicles covers from http://dragonsheroesandwizards.blogspot.com/2014/04/fantasy-series-review-rain-wilds-chronicles-by-robin-hobb.html

I don’t know if you still believe me when I say fresh perspective on dragons, but Robin Hobb’s Rain Wilds Chronicles has a fresh perspective on dragons. Her universe is full of backstory and she has other series that exist in this same universe, but at different times. It’s amazing. This series has a fantastic cast of strong female characters from varying backgrounds. It also combines some more contemporary style with the traditional fantasy style like Seraphina but past the dragons, the similarities stop there. Hobb’s writing style is entirely different from Hartman’s and this series confronts the challenges of societal interactions between humans and humans and humans and dragons and dragons and dragons. It’s got all the permutations and it handles all of them so well. These books also confront resource allocation and sustainability, but it’s really subtle. Everything in these books are so subtle. Hobb blends the world together so well.

What are you favorite dragon books? Please tell me. I need more dragon books to read.

In the meantime, if you’ve read any of these books let me know and we can chat about how awesome they are.

Until next time,

-Alora

P.S. I got my pictures from the following: The Last Dragon Chronicles, The Inheritance Cycle, Seraphina and Shadow Scale, The Rain Wilds Chronicles.

My Life Right Now

Hey guys,

Today we’re going to talk about what my weekdays look like. Those days take up most of your life, so it’s basically a “Day in the Life” blog. However, this blog has a twist. I’ve been really sad for about the whole month of September and so I have two typical days: the day I usually have and the day I always want to have. The day I usually have is the one that happens when I’m sad and the other most often happens when I’m not sad. The goal of this blog post is to nail down a schedule for the not sad day, so I can have a template to follow when trying to achieve a not sad day while actually sad. I have had not sad days like this before. I’m not just coming up with some random, unobtainable standard. This is achievable.

A Typical Day when Sad

Time Action
7:00 AM My alarm goes off.
7:10-7:30 AM I actually get out of bed.
7:30-8:15ish AM Get ready: dressed, fed, make lunch.
8:10-8:20 AM Leave for work
8:35 AM-5:45 PM At work (A.K.A the best part of my day)
5:45-9:00 PM Eat something (not always something healthy) and play around on the internet (usually Netflix or YouTube.)
9:00 – 11:00 PM Actually work on something or clean. Maybe shower. Or just watch Grey’s Anatomy until eleven.
11:00 PM Bedtime. (Usually. Sometimes it’s later.)

A Typical Day when NOT Sad

Time Action
7:00 AM My alarm goes off.
7:00-7:10 AM I actually get out of bed.
7:10-8:00 AM Get ready: dressed, fed, make lunch.
8:00 AM Leave for work
8:15 AM-5:45 PM At work (A.K.A the best part of my day)
5:45-6:30 PM Make dinner and play around online for a bit
6:30 – 8:00 PM Clean / take care of life stuff, like bills / make content
8:00 – 10:00 PM Work on Ahlam
10:00 – 11:00 PM Read and get ready for bed

These days may not look very different in tabular form, but they feel quite different and they usually coincide with my emotional state. The second day is the one I’d like to get in the habit of doing whether or not I am sad. I’m just not quite sure how to do it. The second day helps me keep from being sad by writing and reading, but it also allows me time to keep up with my passions (writing, YouTube, and blogging) while still allocating time for reality. It is quite a magical day, but not one I have been able to have in a while.

If you all have any tips for getting into a productive schedule while sad, or anything else that might be useful, please send them my way.

As for me, I will talk to you guys next week. This post is more meta and less wordy.

-Alora

September Writing Update: I’M SO BEHIND!

Me about to start a writing session a couple weeks ago.

Hello friends!

Remember how I excitedly posted this blog a while back about my timeline for Ahlam? Well that time line proposed a finished first draft by October 1st and I haven’t written in a solid week. Yikes.

I was doing really well and then this last week, I’ve just gotten real sad. I’ve been focusing on feeding myself and keeping my apartment livable, while also trying to keep myself from getting too sad to go to work. Those things are going well. I washed my sheets tonight. I’ve been eating in my bed a lot, so that was long overdue. Also, this weekend, I’m going to the grocery store to stock up on healthy options. I’ve eaten way too much candy and crap this week because I’m running low / am out of yummy healthy food. I’ve mainly been subsisting on noodles and peanut butter, besides the candy.

I went home last weekend though! I spent four days (Thursday through Sunday) back in Nashville chilling with the fam. It was amazing. This weekend, I’ve made plans to go thrift shopping with Mimi and we’re going to go to Ikea and pick out a couch for my apartment. I’m dying without one. Basically, I’m slowly getting my life back on track after it crashed and burned emotionally for many, many days. That said, I am hoping to get back on track with my writing quickly and finish my draft by Mid-October. At the very least, I would like to finish my first draft by November, so I can do NaNoWriMo on a new project. I have never won real NaNoWriMo, only Camp NaNoWriMo. Also, the theme for this year is space and I need an excuse to buy myself space swag.

The writing itself, when I manage to do it, is getting a lot harder. I’ve passed the easy exposition, setting up the plot stuff and now I’m plowing into large emotion filled scenes and rising action. It’s been really difficult to write because Ahlam, herself is going through a lot. Her brother is missing, she’s at a new job, and she feels really isolated. In order to write the scenes well, I have to tap into angst of years past and / or imagine if my little brother suddenly ran away from home and we couldn’t find him. As you can imagine, that makes writing at a swift pace very difficult.

Nearly every scene is emotionally taxing and requires a lot more thought and time than the first 30 thousand words of the book. The scenes aren’t bad though. They take a long time to write, but I think this book is turning out really well. I know it’s a rough draft and I have a lot of changes and real research that I need to do before I can finish it. However, I am quite proud of it so far.

I’ve gotten back into the swing of my content creation this week. After no videos last week and only a blog, I’ve written this blog, posted my WogsVlogs video and already filmed my alorabora video for tomorrow. I just need to edit it. Things are back on the up an up, so I expect lots more writing in my future.

How are your writing / creative projects going? Hit any snags?

Talk to you soon,

-Alora

P.S. If you want updates on my writing, while I write, I always tweet about my writing sessions.

Trust in the Age of the Internet

Hello friends.

Today we’re going to talk about some heavy stuff. I live my life online. I’m constantly tweeting. I post on here and I make videos. I love it. It is, quite literally, my life. I love being “plugged in.” It allows me to stay connected with people. Today I was thinking about what that means about my trust of the internet. I would like to pose the question “What is trust in the age of the internet?”

I’m going to answer that question as well as I can in this post, but there is no way I can cover every facet. I don’t doubt you have your own ideas about trust, so please share them with me. Post them in the comments.Tweet them at me. I don’t care how. I just want to know your thoughts.

So, I have been posting things about my life on the internet for most of my life. For at least the past ten years, maybe more, maybe a little less, I’m not quite sure, there has been some kind of information about me on the internet. There is my genealogy page and I had an original blog on here too that I have since scrapped, but I still have all the old posts. I got a YouTube in 2008 and a Twitter in 2009. I don’t remember when I got a Facebook, but it was early. I didn’t get a tumblr until 2012, but otherwise, I’ve been relatively present on the main social media websites as they’ve grown and matured. The whole point of this paragraph is to let you know just how much information there is about me on the internet. Someone could probably write a biography about me without ever talking directly to me. That’s how much of my life is on the internet.

Now, what does this mean about my trust? I would consider myself a relatively trusting person for people I meet IRL. Most of that trust extends to people I meet on the internet. This is especially true if I meet them on Twitter or tumblr. I love meeting people on Twitter. It’s one of my favorite past times. I treat all of these people just as I would treat my IRL friends and acquaintances.

Of those rules I learned about internet safety I learned in school, only some of them still apply. I’ve adapted my trust of people and websites as I’ve grown and learned more about the internet and as the internet itself has changed.

I don’t think I have become more trusting as I’ve grown older. My trust levels have stayed the same. Instead, I think society has realized that the internet is full of other people just like me: trying to make connections. There are people on the internet that will use you for your money and whatnot, but those people exist in meatspace too. The trick is being able to spot them, which online is actually easier than in meatspace. You can’t Google a stranger you just met if you are still talking to them. That would be rude. On the internet however, they’ll never know if you stalk their social media while you chat with them.

Do I live in a nice, happy corner of the internet? Oh definitely. I surround myself with people I like. I fill my feeds with nice people who’s content and presence I enjoy. But that is exactly what I do in real life as well.

There is so much similarity between the “real world” and the internet because they are inherently linked. There is no going back to a time before the internet because it has changed the way our society functions. However, I don’t think it has changed the way we trust people. Trust in the age of the internet is just the same as trust before the internet. Only now, you can easily find all kinds of information on people like me, who live on social media and that’s not a bad thing.

Trust levels vary by person. So does the way people use social media. People with huge followings and large fanbases cannot always use social media the way I do. The internet is a different place when a million people are looking at you then when only a hundred are looking at you.

I quite honestly, would love to find out what it’s like to have a large following on the internet. They way you trust people has to change when you are “internet-famous.”

What do you think? I’m truly curious.

Until next week,

-Alora

September 2016 Bullet Journal Update

The front of my bullet journal.

Hello friends.

Many months ago now, I started my first bullet journal because a number of YouTubers I follow were doing it. So far it has been one of the best things I’ve done just because everyone else was doing it.

I started my bullet journal back in June and posted an introductory blog about it. Now, it is three months later and I am still going strong. I don’t write it in everyday, but I do use it most days. I usually use it most during the week to keep track of what I need to do when I get home from work and then I don’t use it so much on the weekends.

Structure wise, I am using a monthly calendar and a monthly log as well as my future log and index. I also recently started to use a weekly log that tracks all the tasks I want to do in a given week. Then, of course, I have my daily entries. Most of my daily entries consist of To Do’s and less logging what I did that day. Although, my To Do’s are usually pretty consistent with what I did that day. Just fill in any gaps with Netflix and/or YouTube and that’s what a typical weekday evening looks like.

A weekly log I made.

However, I’ve been meaning to start adding more depth to my daily logs, so I’ve started including updates on my writing. My friend Kellie Sheridan posted a video last year about her writing journal. Basically you report your writing progress and status to your journal. It helps keep you motivated to write, so that you have something to report back to your journal. I’ve decided to work this into my bullet journal and it’s working quite well. I’ve only been doing it for a few days, but I already love it. I’ve got a lot of writing I need to get done this month if I want to stay on schedule and so far this is helping keep me motivated.

Today's daily vlog with my writing entries.

As for looks, my bullet journal is in plain black pen of varying degrees of fanciness depending on what is closest. Although I have decked it out in some stickers and I recently added Beth Revis’ signature to one page. That’s in silver sharpie. I bought a new journal last weekend that I’m planning on using for 2017. I got it from Freddie and Co, and I’m excited to use it next year.

That’s about it for my current bullet journal process. If you have any questions let me know in the comments and please feel free to talk about your bullet journal process or just chat in general. I love getting comments.

Until next time

Beth's signature in my journal

-Alora

An Elaboration on My Writing Process Video

Hello friends!

The above video is the one I posted last week on my channel, alorabora. It’s mostly comedic, but it covers my first draft writing process. I thought an in depth discussion of my process would be better served as a blog post for my other writers to read if they wish.

Please note that this is just my rough draft writing process. I’m not even going to touch on revisions.

For both Ahlam and Complete Immersion I stared with a rough plot outline. Complete Immersion was based on a dream I’d had and Ahlam stemmed from a writing exercise I did during a Pen & Paper meeting. My friend Chibi and I plotted out lots of major events and sketched out character attributes for Ahlam. It was great fun and I still have all of those notes. I wrote the first draft of Complete Immersion during Camp NaNoWriMo over three years ago, so I am going to focus on my writing process for Ahlam.

As I mentioned in my video, I have a story binder. This holds all of the information about my story: characters, maps, outlines, timelines, etc. The very first page of my binder is a chapter list. As I write new chapters, I add them to this list. It helps me organize my thoughts and easily get a good look at how far the story has come. So far, it has thirteen chapters. The next page is a map of Ahlam’s work and a list of everyone she works with. Following that I have more reference pages and a timeline of how I want the story to progress.

I don’t have a strict outline that I follow while writing. I would say that I plan organically. I know how I want the plot to progress and how the story will end on a high-level, but scene-by-scene I take a more pantsing approach and let the characters interact organically. I use my reference pages to track character traits and facts, new characters, new ideas, etc. I look back at them whenever I need, hence why the writing binder is necessary for writing.

I use a simple Word Doc to write my manuscript and while I write, I plan a couple of chapters ahead. I use my big timeline to track how the story is progressing and I’ve also creating a pacing chart to map out how I want the book to be paced between major events. When I start a new chapter, I think about what’s happened so far, and what needs to happen to get the story where it’s going. Then I create a general plan for that chapter and the next one. Sometimes I follow this plan. Other times something comes up in the story and I go a different direction. I write my plans for that chapter and the next a few lines below the actual line I’m writing on, so I can look at them as I write if I want. Keep in mind that these plans are just a few words, usually not even a sentence about what I want to happen.

That’s really about it. Then, as I said above, out-of-sync with the audio, I do that over and over and over again.

I really like the way my writing process is right now. It works well with Ahlam and it keeps me on track with my plan while also allowing for organic growth and additions. I really like the name organic planning or maybe organic plotting. Can we make that one of the writer-type categories?

What do you guys use when you draft? Does it change between manuscripts? I’m super curious about how other writers write, so please let me know in the comments. Or if you have any questions about my process, hit me up in the comments or on twitter and we can have a chat. 😀

Alright, that’s all from me this week.

(Unless you are subscribed to either of my youtube channels.)

Good luck writing!

-Alora

The Struggles of Living Alone

Alternate title: The Struggle of Cleaning Your Own Apartment

Alternate Alternate title: The Joys of Paying your Own Bills

Hello friends!

So, I have been moved out for over a month now, (The video above chronicles my move to my apartment, if you want to watch it.) and it’s about time for a blog complaining and rejoicing my experience so far with living alone. To be fair, I have lived alone before. I spent two separate semesters without a roommate in college, but I always had a friend across the hall. Not so much anymore.

My feelings about living alone are constantly going up and down. Late a night, I usually don’t like it so much. I get tired and sometimes lonely. Whodda thought that living alone was lonely?? Hehe.

Anyways, I usually really like it. After living with five other people not including pets for most of my life, it’s nice to have some peace and quiet. The best part of living alone is being able to keep whatever schedule I want. I don’t even mean staying up late. I mean being able to come home and make dinner and then spend the entire night writing or reading. I don’t have to hang out with anyone. I do miss the constant hanging out sometimes, but it’s nice to have some quiet.

Having to clean everything myself though. That is a struggle. If you ever visited my room at school, you know I wasn’t the best at keeping it clean. It’s even harder, yet more necessary, to keep my apartment clean. The worst is the dishes. I’m not very good at washing my dishes immediately, but I don’t have enough to let them sit around either. I am constantly making new dirty dishes and having to wash the old ones, so I have something to eat off of/with. The spoons get the worst of it. I only have a few of them. I know this sounds silly, but I never realized how many dishes I make before. At home, we switch off chores, so I’m not usually stuck doing the dishes of six people for more than a month. Now, I’m doing the dishes of myself while also having to clean the floor, make dinner, do the laundry, clean the bathroom, work full time and pay the bills. It’s a bit nerve wracking.

Speaking of bills, I paid my first internet bill tonight. I’ve been paying my own phone bill since March, but now I have to pay all of my other bills too and the rent. It gets really stressful really quickly. I no longer just have a job to have a job. I have a job to pay the bills and the rent and to buy food. I have to plan ahead with my money, so I know I’ll have enough at the end of the month when the major bills roll around. It’s stressful, but also kinda nice. Sometimes, I actually enjoy making my own decisions. Since moving out, I have a lot more power over my life. My independence is at once a joy and a source of stress. Although, I guess that’s what being an adult is about.

When I titled this blog, and when I started writing it, I was planning on doing a lot of complaining. I guess I have, but I don’t feel like complaining so much anymore. This is what other adults do too, so I know I can do it. I only have me to worry about. I don’t have to feed a kid or a pet. I may have lots of new worries and stressors, but only for me. Someday, I’ll have my own family, but right now, I think I should relish the silence of living alone. Or at least try a little harder to relish it.

How are your living situtations doing? Does anyone feel my pain on keeping the dishes together?

Until next week,

-Alora